Friday, February 27, 2009

Pregnancy Tests.

So I took a pregnancy test tonight. Half of me was hoping it would be positive while the other half of me was PRAYING it would be negative. It was negative. I'm still paranoid though because this time last year I got pregnant. The first time I took the test it was negative then five days later I had a dream as did Leif, that I was pregnant so I took another and voila: It was positive.

Although I want to be pregnant again in a few months, right now is not the time. At least I don't think it is. God might have other plans?

I think its kind of disappointing when you don't get that plus sign or "Pregnant" on the test. Even when you're hoping you're not pregnant, its still kind of a let down. That's kind of how I felt for a minute or two, but then I was relieved:) Hopefully in a few months I'll have a positive test.

4 comments:

Melissa Vossler said...

I think you and I are sewn from the same thread. As much as I know right now is not an ideal time for me to have another baby - I am always sad to see Aunt Flo, or get a negative test.

Although I most definitely trust God and His timing...there is something magical and life altering about a positive pregnancy test and the 9 months that ensue :)

Margaret said...

I totally agree!

bt said...

holy crap. i was extremely anxious throughout that entire reading. love you!

Allie said...

This post of yours really struck me. Moved me. I think God wanted me to read this. Thank you.