Thursday, August 20, 2009

I haven't written in this since July?
Weird.

I'm a little discouraged at the moment and I'm missing my mommy.
Pregnancy is treating me well and I'm looking forward to having the baby belly.
I'm not missing Southern California as much anymore, and for that I'm grateful.
I still want to be living in Oregon but we'll see where God takes us from here...

I miss Him actually.
I miss Church.
I miss other Christians.

The girls I hang out with believe in God I guess? But its not that big of a deal to them. One of them is Mormon, she's the one I spend most of my time with. She's having a hard time at her church, they're not welcoming. I can relate to that. We run into the girls from her church at the park. We meet with our group the same time they meet with theirs. They're rude. I didn't realize grown ups could be like that. We've tried to get along with them but they don't want anything to do with us really. I don't understand adults.

And that brings me to something else: I don't feel like I'm actually a grown up.
I still feel like a little girl compared to everyone else.
Why is this?