Thursday, August 20, 2009

I haven't written in this since July?
Weird.

I'm a little discouraged at the moment and I'm missing my mommy.
Pregnancy is treating me well and I'm looking forward to having the baby belly.
I'm not missing Southern California as much anymore, and for that I'm grateful.
I still want to be living in Oregon but we'll see where God takes us from here...

I miss Him actually.
I miss Church.
I miss other Christians.

The girls I hang out with believe in God I guess? But its not that big of a deal to them. One of them is Mormon, she's the one I spend most of my time with. She's having a hard time at her church, they're not welcoming. I can relate to that. We run into the girls from her church at the park. We meet with our group the same time they meet with theirs. They're rude. I didn't realize grown ups could be like that. We've tried to get along with them but they don't want anything to do with us really. I don't understand adults.

And that brings me to something else: I don't feel like I'm actually a grown up.
I still feel like a little girl compared to everyone else.
Why is this?

9 comments:

Gerri said...

Grown ups are actually bigger children. That's my take on it...and I heading uphill to 40.

Michelle said...

I'm sorry about that. i hope it's a little better now since you posted it? and congratulations on the new baby! thank you for checking out my blog and for following. also, i wanted to tell you i was just over at your photography blog and WOW! great photographs! you made a sink look like art and riley is CUTE :)

Kim said...

I keep wondering about that grown up thing. Do you just wake up one day and suddenly feel like a grown up? Because I'm still waiting for that day.

Congrats on your pregnancy! Are you getting close to your due date?!

Simply-Mel said...

Yeah, I think we can all relate to this ... as a mom to 3 kids and the wife etc I often feel overwhelmed at what I am responsible for because OFTEN I just want to be a kid! Now I know why my mom KEPT TELLING ME to not wish my childhood away. Strength to you girl, am a-follwing ya!

Design it Chic said...

Awww congrats on your pregnancy!

Happy Friday!

Taren said...

I know what you mean! I don't understand when grown adults act so immature and clicky! It's so weird, but it happens all the time. I'm sure we all do it to some extent. Anyway, and I also feel like a little kid... all the time, haha.

. J a m i . x o x said...

Oh I feel exactly the same way.. Young at heart I spose :)
anyway thanks for your comment on my blog.. I hope you feel better
xoxo

Sara said...

Would you like an "amen"? Cause I'd like to give you one.

I just moved to a new town and am having a heck of a time finding a church. The first two I attended were very unfriendly.

The whole process is exhausting and starting to make my butt twitch.

Amy said...

I cannot believe it has taken me this long to find you! I mean you have been following me for a while, and I am just now checking out your blog? Yeah, I don't get it either.

Congrats on being pregnant! That is wonderful, but not the most fun 9 months of your life. So worth it though.
Sorry about the not finding a church. I imagine it would be really hard. Honestly, I think most people are just afraid to go out of their comfort zone, and if they are talked to they will talk back, but are afraid to initiate. That is how I am anyways. I hope you can find peace and a place where you feel happy and whole while worshiping Him. Hopefully things have gotten better now.